My Little Princess,I know I'm a day early - but we're going up to
Nanny & Grandad's farm and won't be around tomorrow, & I didn't want to be late sending you some balloons. I made them all red for Valentine's Day ; )
14 Months - you know it still seems like yesterday at times - I have started having dreams again of the day I delivered you - it instantly brings me to tears - I wish things had turned out so different.
I'm sure you can tell that I'm really starting to have anxiety about this new little Peanut. I am having flashbacks of things turning out the same and I try to convince myself it will be different - I'm just so scared. So please watch over this new little soul because I know you are a great big sister.
Your Big Brother was asking questions about you again. I love that he asks, just wish I were stronger to have the answers for him.
Anyway my Love, I hope you are having a great Valentine's Party with all the other little angels. 
Enjoy the balloons!!
You are loved and missed everyday precious!
Hugs & Kisses!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxoxo
