This is a blog dedicated to my dearly loved and missed daughter.

Alexandra's Footprints

Alexandra's Footprints
"How very softly you tiptoed into our world. Almost silently; only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left on our hearts." --Dorothy Ferguson

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Getting ready for your 1 year

My precious little peanut,
Your 1 year is coming up soon, and I'm trying to get things ready for you. I have had some cards made up to give to very close friends & family, and we have invited our families over the day before to remember you and let you know just how much you are loved and missed. I know I can't be one of those people that celebrate your 1st birthday type of thing, and we're not the tyoe to have a memorial service. I hope you are ok with it just being your family, sedning you LOTS and LOTS of love. I have asked everyone to bring an ornament for your tree we planted outside, so make sure to be close so you can see. On your actual day it is just going to be Me, Daddy and your big Brother - hanging out - feeling that empty space in our lives. Geez even as I type this I'm in total tears (at the office!!) I'm sorry Honey I just miss you sooo much!
You are loved & missed everyday!
Hugs & Kisses my Princess!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxo

Monday, November 17, 2008

11 Months

My Little Alexandra,
I know you see everything I do, how I act, how I feel, so please know that when I cry & cry that's it's only because I love you so much. I miss you and can't believe that it has been 11 months. I do stop myself at times from having those thoughts of you being 11 months old only because my heart can't handle the ache. I do love to think about you but these thoughts always are joined with thoughts of needing you with me, not understanding why you had to leave.
I hope you finally got your balloons - they were stuck in a tree & I haven't been able to bring myself to see if they are still there - can't even do that right. I'll post pictures later, but know that I love you SOOOOOO much.
You are loved & missed everyday peanut!!
Hugs & Kisses!!!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxo

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Thinking of you - Missing you

My Precious little Alexandra,
I've been thinking of you so much lately, and I'm filled with so much more sorrow. The thoughts of what you would be like, what you would be doing keep filling my head. I saw a picture of Tommy when he was about a year old, and I couldn't stop thinking about what you would look like at that age.
I hope you hear me saying good night to you every night, hoping you are safe. I am longing to see you again, hold you in my arms, just having the world be right again.
You are loved and missed every day my little peanut.
Hugs & Kisses!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxo