This is a blog dedicated to my dearly loved and missed daughter.

Alexandra's Footprints

Alexandra's Footprints
"How very softly you tiptoed into our world. Almost silently; only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left on our hearts." --Dorothy Ferguson

Monday, March 30, 2009

Your Name in the Sand

Alexandra My Little Sweet Pea,
I wanted to post this picture as it's very special. A family over in Australia does this for families who have lost little ones. Your beautiful name in the sand. It's so precious like you, it brings tears to my eyes. We miss you soooo much. I wish you were with us.
You are loved and missed everyday my love.
Hugs & Kisses!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxoxo

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Empty space

My precious Alexandra,
I find myself feeling so empty right now - which I guess I wasn't expecting being almost 9 months pregnant now. I just miss you so much, and find myself longing to hold you in my arms, kiss your face, smell you & just love you.
I'm sorry that I'm always asking you to watch over this new little peanut - I'm so scared something will happen. I know you're a great big sister to this peanut, I just can't get rid of this anxiety.
You will always be my little girl sweetie pie.
You are loved & missed everyday!
Hugs & Kisses My Love!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxoxo

Sunday, March 15, 2009

15 Months

My Little Princess,
15 Months we have been missing you. The weather is so nice today, I sent you some bright coloured spring balloons. I hope you like them.
I have been slipping into the pit lately and was scared today was going to push me so far down there but thankfully it hasn't. You must be close by. I could cry right now but I know I'm ok. I look at your picture and at times it seems like none of this is real. How could you be gone> How could you not be in my arms? How did this happen? Why did this happen? I know these are questions that will only torment, by they still find their way into my head.
Hope you have a great day today playing with all your angel friends.
You are loved and missed every day my little peanut!
Hugs & Kisses my Princess - just wish I could actually kiss your sweet soft cheek.
Love, Mommy!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

My Little Baby Girl

You will always be my little baby girl. 20 years from now, my baby girl. You know you go with me everywhere I go because you are always in my heart.
I miss you so much and just long for the days where I could hold you, kiss you, take care of you.
I often find myself wondering what you would look like now being just over 1 year old, and I cry because we are missing out on that. I always seem to be crying now.
You are loved and missed everyday my love!
Hugs & Kisses!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxoxo

Friday, March 6, 2009

Just Thinking about you & missing you

My Lovely little Girl,
I just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you and missing you - hoping you are safe and happy - helping all the other little friends you have made celebrate their heavenly birthdays. If there is a way to be more peaceful with all of this please let me know - the pain just seems to always be right around the corner. I don't want to be sad every time I think of you - it's just I miss you and what could have been so so so very much!
You will always be my baby girl and I will always be sending you lots of love!
You are loved & missed everyday my love!
Hugs & Kisses!
Love, Mommy!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

A Gift from Nanny & Grandad

My Sweet Little Princess,

Hello my Darling - I wanted to post this picture so you could see what your Nanny & Grandad brought you back from Florida. I think it is sweet that they are thinking of you - you are never forgotten my love.

Hugs & Kisses my Little Peanut!

Love, Mommy! xoxoxoxo