This is a blog dedicated to my dearly loved and missed daughter.

Alexandra's Footprints

Alexandra's Footprints
"How very softly you tiptoed into our world. Almost silently; only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left on our hearts." --Dorothy Ferguson

Saturday, February 14, 2009

14 Months

My Little Princess,

I know I'm a day early - but we're going up to
Nanny & Grandad's farm and won't be around tomorrow, & I didn't want to be late sending you some balloons. I made them all red for Valentine's Day ; )

14 Months - you know it still seems like yesterday at times - I have started having dreams again of the day I delivered you - it instantly brings me to tears - I wish things had turned out so different.
I'm sure you can tell that I'm really starting to have anxiety about this new little Peanut. I am having flashbacks of things turning out the same and I try to convince myself it will be different - I'm just so scared. So please watch over this new little soul because I know you are a great big sister.
Your Big Brother was asking questions about you again. I love that he asks, just wish I were stronger to have the answers for him.

Anyway my Love, I hope you are having a great Valentine's Party with all the other little angels.
Enjoy the balloons!!

You are loved and missed everyday precious!

Hugs & Kisses!

Love, Mommy! xoxoxoxo

1 comment:

Tristansmommy said...

Oh Michelley, I'm sorry you're being filled with anxiety again, I think that considering what we've been through it's only natural!! Know that you've got a big support system behind you, and that I'm at least rooting you on!!

14 Months sweet Alexandra, I can't believe it's been 14 months.. Time just keeps passing us by, and with every second your mommy still loves and misses you so.. Be and stay close, watch over your new baby brother or sister as the time draws nearer for him/her to join your mommy and daddy... Send big brother lots of little sister kisses, and of course stay close to mommy and daddy!!

Michelle you're a very strong woman, and friend, and I just know this new little addition to your family will arrive safely, Alexandra, is leading them home to you!!
Love you my friend, always thinking about you and our angels!!