Ornaments for you!

Sweetie, here's a picture of your tree with the ornaments on it.

The glass dove is from your Nanny & Grandad.

The 2 angels are from your Nana & Grandpa & Uncle Matt.

The snowflake is from Mommy, Daddy & Tommy.

The glass angel is from Lisa who said good bye to her little boy Peyton the same way we had to with you, I'm sure you guys are hanging out together.

The key chains are from my Cousin Kelly and Abigail would be your second cousin.

The white star is from Aunty Alison's In-Laws (Uncle Drew's parents)



The snowman is from Aunty Wendy, Mr. Anthony, Ashley & Mike.

The little Angel lighting a candle and other angel holding a lantern are from your Aunty Tracy, Uncle Peter, Bill, Chelsea, Amy & David.





This cute little snowlady is from my Aunt Janet & Uncle Ken (Your Great Aunt & Uncle)

This little sheep is from your Aunty Alison, Uncle Drew & Nate.

So many precious ornaments for you - you have so many people that love you and miss you. You really are loved & missed everyday!

Hugs & Kisses my Peanut!

Love, Mommy!

1 Year Heavenly Birthday Things

Sweety, here's a picture of the napkins (I wrapped them up and had little dollies holding them together, then the other picture is of your tree with the snowflake ornament that Mommy, Daddy & Tommy got for you.

xoxoxo

1 Year Heavenly Birthday card

My Sweet Little Alexandra,

I'm finally getting to posting your pictures of your 1 year heavenly Birthday. You know we miss you so much and always wish that you were here with us on earth.

You will always be my little daughter who I love so so so much. I hope you were happy with your 1 year. I can only imagine the kind of party you had up there!!

Here is a picture of the cards I had made up and you can see the pins that I gave out to everyone at the bottom corner. Sweet little pink ribbon with baby footprints inthe middle.

Hugs & Kisses my Peanut - you are loved and missed everyday!

Love, Mommy! xoxoxo

1 year ago....

My Dearest Little Alexandra,
1 year ago - you changed my life. Maybe I was taking things for granted, maybe I wasn't loving the way I could, I'm not sure, but after losing you - things have been so different. I have been trying to be a better person (doesn't always happen) but I think of you looking down at me from heaven and I want you to be proud of me. Still believing I'm teaching you right and wrong. I don't know, it sounds kind of silly but I still think this way.
I will post pictures later as I haven't really collected myself.
We had the family over yesterday which was really nice. Everyone brought an ornament for your tree outside - we all went out and placed them on your tree. It was peaceful. You truly are loved and missed.
Today, Daddy, Tommy & I pretty much just hung out. Having some good family time. Please visit us soon - we miss you and need to feel you close by. You will always be part of this family, so don't stay away too long.
You are loved & missed everyday Peanut!
Hugs & Kisses!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxo

Almost a year ago

My little peanut,
I can't even put into words what I'm feeling right now. I'm crying all the time, missing you so much, feels like it just happened. O thought I was doing pretty good, but I seem to be falling apart. Don't know how I'm going to put on the brave face all day tomorrow with the family over. I know they will understand if I break down, but I'm trying to be strong.
I will make sure to post the cards I had made up for you. I also got everyone coming a little pin that has a pink ribbon and little baby footprints. I wrapped all the knives and forks up in pink napkins being held together by little dollies. I made pink cupcakes and got you some balloons. i just want you to know that you are not forgotten - I could NEVER do that, we all miss you so very much and we LOVE YOU!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE come for a visit - they bring me strength and peace and I seem to be missing that a lot lately.
You are loved and missed everyday my little one!
Hugs & Kisses!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxo

A year ago

My Little Peanut,
I have been thinking about you so much lately. I keep remembering what I was doing last year - Christmas shopping, wrapping your little Christmas present for your stocking, finding the prefect little toys, clothes, soothers for you.
It was so hard to go back and have to unwrap the gifts you never got to open.
I cry all the time now - at home, at work, in the shower, in bed, in my dreams.
Your 1 year is fast approaching and I feel like I'm falling apart.
Please come to visit me soon - I miss you so much.
You are loved & missed every single day my love.
Hugs & Kisses xoxoxo
Love, Mommy!