This is a blog dedicated to my dearly loved and missed daughter.

Alexandra's Footprints

Alexandra's Footprints
"How very softly you tiptoed into our world. Almost silently; only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left on our hearts." --Dorothy Ferguson

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Trying

My Sweet Little Alexandra,
Just thought I would let you know what's been going through my head lately. These thoughts have left me feeling somewhere in the middle of happy & sad - no man land kind of.
Mommy & Daddy have decided to try to have another baby. I am really hoping that you will help pick this little soul to join our family. I can't even type this without crying and feeling guilty. You know I would never try to replace you - I KNOW it can't be done!!!! I wish you were in my arms right now but I know you understand. We will need lots of strength from you to help us through this.
I'm excited and scared so much to get pregnant again. I had convinced myself that after having you I was DONE! My feelings have changed and I still want Tommy to have a brother or sister. I have heard conversations from other Mommies who have lost their dear babies like I lost you, wanting the next rainbow baby to be the same sex as the one who had to leave, but I don't think I really mind. I will ALWAYS have my little girl. Please just let this little one come home with us, grow up healthy & safe.
So my sweet little baby girl, start looking around for your little brother or sister. I love you & miss you EVERYDAY!!!!!!
Hugs & Kisses my Peanut!!!!!
Love, Mommy! xoxoxo

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Alexandra's Mom!

I wish you baby dust and peace on your venture for your rainbow baby!

Thinking of you and Alexandra!

-Michelle
(MT, Brooke's mom from BBC)

Tristansmommy said...

Oh Michelle I'm right here with you!! I wish you tons of rainbow baby dust....Much love to you and your wonderful family.....

Alexandra stay close to mommy and daddy....Send little brother lots of angel kisses, and help Jesus pick out the perfect little brother/sister to you and Tommy for mommy and daddy to take home!!!